Today, I was feeling a little defeated. I did the comparison thing again... I was watching "show day" videos of gorgeous gals who are not postnatal and have flat & tight tummies. They looked fabulous!! They had abs! They looked different than me.
I have stretchmarks and some loose skin and my tummy isn't as flat as can be. I am postnatal and I always will be. I felt like I couldn't hold a candle to these women. I thought, "If they were my competition, I would not even place!! But here is the thing, this goal of mine keeps me going, it's helping me train and transform my body for the BETTER. I don't know what I will look like a year from now. What will I look like after I gain muscle and then come out of a prep? I need to give myself a fighting chance. I need to stop the comparisons this early on.
Yes, comparisons are a PART of bikini competitions, but I do NOT think it is fair for me to compare my beginning to someone's show day ending.
So, what if I can't fully tighten and flatten my tummy? Well, I am looking into different suit cuts and options. A high rise can help hide a little loose skin or a c-section scar. This is great news!! But, ultimately, I AM going to that stage in about a year. I AM going to give this my best shot and I WILL be proud of the postnatal package I bring to stage, placing or not.
This is about so much MORE than placing. It is about chasing my goals and living my best life, in front of my kids. I never want to stop dreaming and achieving and I want my kids to have that same spirit.
Never stop chasing your dreams. Don't give up in the beginning. Track your progress and see what you can do!
~Lila
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